There is this thing this statement people always use. People NEVER change ha! Who in the hell are we kidding? Look at the person sitting right next to you, or across the room or a million miles away or what seems to be anyway. And see them for who they are right this very minute! Are they that person they were when you met? Do you laugh as often, do you trust as much, love as much, smile as much and the list goes on? Well do ya? I am not talking about just a spouse cuz maybe that is better maybe friendships are better maybe your dog acts better maybe anything is better than yesterday. BUT it has changed. PEOPLE change. Times change. The world changes with each rotation. It fucking changes. Maybe it's just habbits that don't change.
What has me thinking this morning about change? Two examples:
1: A so called friend who I really have been avoiding since April. So maybe that makes me a bad friend too. But in truth I avoid the situation to be a better friend. Mike and I made a deal it was just best this way. This is CHANGE For the words that would fly outta my mouth would sting and they would be words I could never take back. When you disagree with behavior it is just best to be still and quiet sometimes. I can be brutal and too honest at times hurting those in ways that sometimes is just too much I guess so I have been told. So over the course of 2 years I have learned to back off. One irritating issue you as a friend say you will call; CALL. Don't always worry bout yourself! When you know that YOUR friend's father could just have been handed a death sentence YOU check on her she shouldn't have to call YOU! A true friend give you comfort when a family pet dies but you can't return the favor. When her Dad has a heart attack or again her father is sick. OK I could continue anyway I could continue but.... Her life has chnged but some is just the same habbits those seem to stay.
2: A Family member is so selfish that they expect YOUR child or your family to go out of THEIR way to see them, but uhhhh HELLO???? you see on Face Book they are passing right by San Antonio for uhh I don't know like the 100th time since you have lived here to go to Houston. Yeah I just think not. Call it petty call it what you will. Just do not give a flying frog's ass. Never thought I would see such changes but it's been this way for a LONG time now and that's ok I have grown sort of accustomed to it. Not to say that in some moments it doesn't piss me right the HELL OFF!!!!!!!! Family interesting concept too bad it is just sort of a concept that isn't always functional.
However sometimes change can be really good. Sometimes we grow and change in the right direction. We realize there are people out there in the world who are toxic to us and it is better if we just walk away. We figure out what matters and who matters. We dip our toes into new friendships lightly being oh so careful not to dive in. Then when the time is right we allow the right people to be our true friends. We allow the right people to love us and we bare our souls and true selves to only those that deserve it most. Those that will stand beside us through all the tiniest of changes each little wrinkle, or white hair, each laugh or moment of silence, or the salt of each tear. Change it happens and those who say people NEVER change well they are just full of shit. I know of the course of my life well just look at me and say I have never changed.....
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