So today marks the day of the last week of Hayley's last day of 9th grade. Wow what a ride it has been seems like a whirly dervish sometimes. I look at all of the things that happen in a year's time not just with her either but with everything and shake my head asking was that this year??? Or another year entirely?

The 1st half of the year crawled by sort of with Kristifer still being deployed. The white patch of hair seemed to grow in at a record pace thanks to worry but all is well and he is home creating havoc wherever he lands. But that's my boy. Gotta love his sense of humor, his smile, brutal honesty (gee wonder where he gets that from) and most of all knowing he always has everyone's back.

I mean HOLY SHIT I Jenn- Morrill after 23 long years did what? QUIT SMOKING!!!!!! Yep I still wake up sometimes asking for real? But in my soul miss the shit out of it that was so part of me and now on some days just seems like I have left something at home. But that does happen less often good thing.

Also I feel more like when we go do something fun I get this overwhelming tug on my heart like something great is missing like i left something important behind. Then think maybe I left something on like the stove. Then think no it doesn't feel as simple as that then realize what it is even though Kristifer Tyke graduated and left in '07 it is him that I feel as though I have left when we go to the beach or tubing or whatever. And I wonder do that ever go away in time or get to where that oh hell I left something at home just feels so much less. then I look at the grand picture and realize FUCK Hayley is going in 10th grade next year and she is 3 years behind and that Oh shit I left something at home will be 2 times greater so that is damn depressing. At the end of each school year and this was with Tyke too I felt a little sad knowing they were both one step closer to growing up. Now my son is a man and hayley well.....y'all get the picture.

Anyway it has been a year of watching Hayley accomplish a lot of 1st's and a year of her making me nuts. But I have loved every second of it! But I am glad the school year is comming to a close and she can rest cuz next year is gonna be a wild ride....they always are aren't they?